So today at work, my negative attitude has been very visible. I usually pride myself in hiding my negative attitude and putting it aside and getting through the day. This hasn't proved to be beneficial the past few weeks. Needless to say, I sat down with my boss. I look up to him more as my mentor, because he has a similar work ethic to myself. So I walk into the meeting very nervous, and wondering what is going to happen.
My boss and I discussed ways to overcome this negativity, and I learned a lot of lessons today.
1. I learned that I can not change people, only the way I react to said people.
2. Negativity is toxic to a team. It is very visible, considering I wear my feelings on my sleeve.
3. When I leave work, I leave it. I do not take the stress, and negativity with me. Once I am gone, I am gone. This negative attitude if held in can be toxic to your personal relationships.
The lessons learned today will hopefully stick with me, and carry over into this new person I have been creating ever since I ended a toxic relationship. I think the hardest lesson to learn is leaving your stress from work, at work. It is such an easy topic to discuss with your roommate, your significant other, your friends, anyone. For example, I went to a restaurant yesterday after work, and the manager said, "I am sorry if the music offends you." I rudely remarked, "No it was not saying hello how are you doing offended me." The stress from my day yesterday was too much for me to handle, and I carried it over to my personal life. As with any lesson I learn, I internalize it, and use it to make me a better person.
Here's to being the best person I can be.