And so it Begins...

So Sarah and I finally decided which half ironman we are going to do. We decided to do the White Lake, NC Half Ironman on May 8, 2010. The swim will be warm, in a clear lake, with a depth of 9 feet, and sandy bottoms. The run and bike are on a relatively flat shady course. Here is the link, check it out and feel free to join me if you so choose.

http://www.setupevents.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=event_detail&eventID=1400

From Monday, I will have 16 weeks to prepare. My training program that I am using is from Matt Fitzgerald, Triathlete Magazine: Essential Week-By-Week Training Guide. There are 10 levels to choose from. I have decided to choose a level that allows me to work hard, but to just complete the Half Ironman. Although I love competing, and not to brag but did well last season in my Sprint Triathlons, I don't think I am trying to break any records. Secretly, in the back of my head, I know I am going to push it, and hope for something great. Here is a link to the book on Amazon.com

http://www.amazon.com/Triathlete-Magazines-Essential-Training-ebook/dp/B002SRL39U/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1262753506&sr=8-2

Now that everything is set, except for the payment, I am nervous. I never thought I would be doing this. I just continue to push myself to do things I never thought in a million years I would do. I am nervous about training, about competing, and about the actual race. I should be filled with excitement, but I am just nervous now. I am worried I won't be able to do it. I am nervous of failing.

I am scared of failing. I don't know what actually defines failing in this sense, but I am scared that if I don't go through with this race, I will be a failure. Ever since I was a little girl, I have always been worried of failing. Talk to my 5th grade teacher, I think she helped to strengthen this fear of failure.

Fears aside, I know I will do great with the triathlon. If I do not complete the race, I will at least be in better shape than I am currently, and learn a little something more about myself. Up to this point I have succeeded greatly in every challenge I have put myself up to. I am actually quite overwhelmed with how much I accomplished in 2009. I am sure in a few weeks, the fear will subside, and the anticipation and excitement will settle in.

Here's to my biggest challenge in 2010!!!